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The Not-So-Little Mermaid (She Haunts Me, She is Me)

WRITTEN BY CELINE CHOI

she chokes,

 

there is Human mold encroaching inside

from under the bath faucet

 

asphyxiation is close when Bloodlines are lost

to fighting water

 

which on all accounts of the

Sciences and Mathematics

should have dissolved as seafoam years ago

 

instead, let me introduce myself,

it is who I am, problematically, prophetically, the Ocean consumes all

 

the sirens stopped singing so long ago

 

how could they ever have

Existed?

 

my brain is

Drowning                              and                   Burning

all at once

 

i refuse to Eat

anything

except

myself

 

my Pathetic bones which stopped existing Tuesday (and Thursday) night

                                       Binge on Worthlessness

 

             Cheers!

to that pantry light glare

smoothing your slick Prison Body

 

smile for me beautiful (more like carcass)

a filet mignon

radiating

delicious, delectable, life’s Purpose

 

tether your maternal maturing full body

to Time’s chains around your

Achilles Heels

 

Destruction’s Eden as in post-bath

you left an ocean of feeling okay,

of feeling Pretty

with Hunger

 

how Dare you,

the dishes piling around are

your life long Best Friends

 

you Ate them

 

crushed the gears of love’s biological clock

 

the tick- the strum- the singular hummingbird in the Panic closet heart of yours

 

replaced by the menstrual cycle a half-year in the making

it is a sign

 

Repeat,

i’ll hold you close in a deathly embrace if you never come back,

Little Mermaid

 

there is mold

Celine Choi is a high school junior attending A&M Consolidated High School. She often contemplates feminist issues, the fictional characters in the latest book she is reading, or the Purpose of Life™. Occasionally, her daydreaming becomes a poem, and some of these poems can be found in Crashtest Literary Magazine, Eunoia Review, and the Live Poets’ Society amongst others. When not daydreaming or writing poetry, she spends her time fueling her dependence on energy drinks and playing the viola.

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